Support system,and not so supportive

from COPD and Me by Grandmummy
I want to mention the support system I have.
Then there is my ex son-in-law and his fiance'.They are awesome. Not only do they let me see my grandchildren(My daughter does not let me see them)if I need medicine picked up they are right there to pick it up.There is also a good friend of mine. He has been through COPD with his mother. Who sadly has passed away. His wife passed away from Cancer. He has been through so much yet he is still willing to help others.Not many men would stay with his wife if she had COPD. I thought my husband was one who would stay. Boy was I wrong. The integrity I thought he had was never there. He kept looking for reason to start fights andI would not fight back. Besides how can you make up for stuff you did 25 yrs ago. I can't and I know he can't. He had nothing in the present to complain about. We were getting along better than ever. No the sex was not there. My husband told me that HE CRAVED SEX.That must be why he spent so much money on sex toys. He is 55 yrs old. If I have a question for him. I email; my husband. He is so nasty. I kept his emails and mine. The difference is amazing. Why he feels he has to call me Nasty names I will never understand. I am not saying I was a perfect wife for all 35 yrs I wasn't. We had a lot of good years. But the last two years were great until Oct 2008. I bet that is when he met her. He would go out for a long walk. I figured he was calling her. I asked to use his phone once because my cell was not working. I took it walked out of his office and he actually ran after me and stood there as I made my call. He would accuse me of reading his emails. I never did that. But he had something to hide he put a lock on his office door,so I could not go in. I just wish he showed me some respect. I think after 35 yrs I deserve that much. They say the person who cheats treats the person they are cheating on rotten, because they have to have a reason for cheating or leaving.
I wonder about his Mistress also. How could a 35 yr old woman,live with a married man,22 yrs her junior,who has a wife who is chronicaly ill. I know when they first got together she was laid off from the company they worked for(my husband still works there)I wonder if she move in 2 months from Minn, To California so she would have a man to support her, Sorry all you guys over 50 but that is usually why some one 20 something yrs stays with you. One of these days he might get ill like I am or might be oo old and she will go looking for someone better and with more money. I think that is wht he is so mean to me. Ican't work,I need money to live on for medicine,Oxygen . So we can get divorce. I need to be on his insurance. My 6 yr old grandson thinks it's okay to have a girlfriend and still be married. I told him no but he needs to talk to grandpa about it